五月份参加了一个Clubmed的摄影比赛，前十名能够前往巴厘岛进行拍摄。

很认真的阅读Brief，整理片子，上传。不过我从没想过自己会赢。

今天查Gmail的时候发现一封来自Eyeka的邮件，说我进入了前十名！感觉像假的一样。然后又看到一封通知我获奖已被取消的邮件…感觉还是像假的一样。

Hi,
Congratulations on making it as one of the 10 finalists who will be flown (all-expense paid) to Bali, Indonesia for the Club Med Photo Challenge! The event will take place on May 27th until June 1st.

我鬼使神差地从22号开始就没有看过我的gmail。

Hello,
After several emails, we have not received any word from you. You also didn’t put a number in your Eyeka profile so we haven’t been able to call you.

We regret to inform you that your spot in the top 10 is now officially forfeited. You are no longer among the 10 finalists and we have selected one of the alternates who have confirmed his availability as your replacement.

然后脑子就空白了几秒钟。感觉就像自己买的号码中了一百万可是彩票却被洗衣机搅烂了一样。和去年有机会去菲律宾却没有护照感觉那是一样一样的。

我和东南亚没有缘分….

Li Qian, China (alternate selected to replace Charlie Qiu who could not be contacted)

这个李倩同学应该请我吃顿饭。

最后贴一下通知和我的参赛作品以自勉。那什么，我以后还是得给自己一点信任。

写完这篇文章我突然觉得自己这辈子也出不了中国了。呸呸呸。